Did you ever notice that when you’re sad, dying seems way less scary?
yeah.
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Via Beat itDecember 28, 2010
The Cheshire Cat: I have received a few messages lately about people fearing the looming...
I have received a few messages lately about people fearing the looming 1st of January 2011 and there are a few things I wanted to say.
I, am without a doubt, absolutely and utterly terrified of it’s arrival. I think it’s a pretty common thing for those suffering with mental illness.
I do…
December 16, 2010
I think I’m just tired and ready to move on from this life.
Untangling the Myths About Attention Disorder - NYTimes.com
There is growing controversy that ADHD is actually the result of the fast-paced processing of modern technology and not brain chemistry. This article addresses the neuroscientific evidence that supports the diagnosis of ADHD. I will give the sociological perspective in future postings.
Larry Laveman, Chief Clinical Director
December 15, 2010
ALL YOU NEGATIVE PEOPLE.
So a few years ago, I went through this phase where I was extremely depressed and even contemplated suicide. I was having trouble accepting my sexuality and didn’t have anybody to turn to because of my place in a Catholic school. Life was horrible back then, but I looked past that negativity and realized that there is ACTUALLY a world out there for me. I really get annoyed with negative people sometimes because there is hope out there for everybody. You only need to open your eyes to open your mind. Life could be so much worse! Those who are reading this and saying, “What does he know? He has no idea what I have to go through.” are right. I don’t know. BUT YOU’RE ON TUMBLR which means you have an Internet connection on some sort of electronic device that was purchased by somebody who cares about you. You don’t have it as bad as homeless youth, or starving children, etc.
Stop bitching and get out there and fix your situation!
here’s a perfect example of the “snap out of it!” mentality, folks.
depression isn’t bitching. depression isn’t just negativity. It’s an illness. You know, it affects the levels of serotonin and norepinephrine in the brain and such…
though I’m really glad you were able to get past your struggles, please just take a second and realize that most people with severe depression find it pretty fucking difficult, if not impossible to “see past the negativity”. Of course things could be a lot worse, but again, it’s not about taking things for granted or being dissatisfied with our lives. Depression is a terrifying disease that can make it impossible just to get up in the morning. My mom even skipped school for a month to stay in bed and sleep when she was first diagnosed. this is way more serious than most people are aware of.
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Via ♥ STONED WITH GAGA ♥December 8, 2010
I’m a terrible person for not updating this more often. I have no excuses really, I just often lack the motivation. But maybe I can turn things around soon. I don’t know how many people actually read these posts but it doesn’t really matter I guess. It would just be nice to have a place to document where my mindset is.
So what the fuck is new with me? I just came home from my fall semester. I can’t describe how nice it is to be done earlier than most other people, I’m really basking in this.
At the same time I’m really sad to be ending this semester- I was hoping that things would turn around and maybe I could get back to where I was last fall, but it didn’t happen. To make this less cryptic… I found out he has a girlfriend now and I felt too defeated to still try and become his friend again. I’m disappointed in myself, and I wish I just had the guts to simply say “I miss you”. Three words that could have changed things but stayed dormant in my mind instead.
I’m afraid that I’ll start cutting again now that I’m home. But it’s more for the fact that I’m afraid of getting caught than of falling back into this habit. I need the numbness it brings. I need it desperately.
Autumn is the hardest season. The leaves are falling, and they’re falling like they’re falling in love with the ground. And the trees are naked and lonely, I keep trying to tell them new leaves will come around in the spring, but you can’t tell trees those things- they’re like me, they just stand there and don’t listen. -Andrea Gibson
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November 4, 2010
I’m gradually feeling more and more like I’m living in a nightmare.
I also realized today that my experience with depression is why I don’t believe in God. At least not in the christian sense. Because if God were really in control of everything, then he must be playing a cruel, sick joke on people like me.
